Sunday, October 29, 2006
i can't stand the life im livng right now..i'm sick of it all..i was not the man i used to be..i have changed..not for the better..Lord im tired of living this life of nothingness..where can i find hope with such a bleak outlook of this nonsensical world..Lord change me to the person you want me to be..make me, mold me, break me into the man You love me to be..change me from the inside out that the world i will radiate like a light in this darken world..i want to change..i need You to change me..hear my prayers from heaven and answer my cry that i may know You are the true God of the heavens and the earth..Amen..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 10/29/2006 09:16:00 pm
i am soooo tempted to say it out!! argh!! God why at this time?? haiz..of all the things it has to happen..of all the time it has to happen now..argh..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 10/29/2006 08:38:00 pm
Saturday, October 28, 2006
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God my Saviour
Has ransomed me
And like a flood
His mercy rains
Un-ending love
Amazing grace
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 10/28/2006 05:50:00 pm
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
had a blasting good day today! hahaha..had soccer match in the morning..back pain seemed to went off..so could do some running..well..eventually radi8 lost the game..but nonetheless we had fun..just lacked a little teamwork here and there..but oh well..it was all in the name of fun..wish we can do this more often..haha
went back church to freshen up before heading to vivo-city..initiated by yours truly..took us 1/2hr just to get into vivo city..waited so long to get into the carpark..then had to go around hte carpark to search for a parking slot..and when we finally went into the mall..guess what? ren shan ren hai..literally meaning people mountain people sea..which means SO MANY PEOPLE!!!! i mean seriously..i have not seen a shopping complex that crowded in all my life..wanted to catch a movie..and guess what again..the only movies that are not selling fast are those that have been played for weeks or those that are played at wierd timings like 9+ or 11+..gave up hope on watching one..then just went around window shopping..almost bought a pair of jeans..but i thought..hmm..maybe i can wait abit longer and see if there will be a yr end sale..maybe can get better price..haha..but the most memorable part was the time when we stepped into toy's'rus..really damn funny lah..the few of us were just playing with the toys around there..fascinated by the high tech toys kids get these days..haha..but the funny part was playing with those toys that had the sign "squeeze here"..we were like squeezing every toy which had that sign..hahaa!! best part was i had this fight scene which rach and i 'fought' in..haha..it was damn funny..ok i have to defend myself here..i won the 'fight scene'..call me ungentlemanly..but hey..that was like the only time i won her lor..before even they took a clip of that scene..i was soundly beaten by rach..as in really..hahaha..but was damn funny lah..if you wanna see the clip ask me for it..
haha..its been a long day lah..one of the days that will always be remembered whenever i walk down memory lane..oh well..gtg now..tired already..need to catch some sleep..nitez
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 10/24/2006 09:32:00 pm
Saturday, October 21, 2006
been some time since i last blogged..
over these past few weeks after being out of tekong..i have been reflecting on how i have kinda like distant away from God..kinda shocking i know..but nonetheless it is happening now..and i really have no answer to halt this slide..even my parents are telling me..but i really dun see how i had distant away..and even then..i really cant find anymore strength to just push myself to go on..trust me..as much as every part of me want to draw nearer to God..its as though those very parts of me want to go live with the worldly ways..
maybe its time to really just snap out of everything..life's not a dream..im living in reality..so many times when i look back to the decisions i made in the past..theres always a tinge of regret, disappointment on why i even made that particular decision..it would have turn up even better if i had just listen and follow accordingly..
haiz..God help me lah..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 10/21/2006 11:22:00 pm
Saturday, October 07, 2006
have had enough..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 10/07/2006 09:58:00 am
Monday, October 02, 2006
Dancing with God~When I meditated on the word GUIDANCE, I was drawn to "dance" at the end of the word. I reflected upon how doing God's will is a lot like dancing. When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn't flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes this and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other. My eyes drew back to the word GUIDANCE.
When I saw "G," I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i." "God, "u" and "i" dance." ! God, you, and I dance. This statement is what guidance means to me. As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I became willing to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God's blessings and mercies be upon you and your family on this day and everyday. May you abide in Him as He abides in you. Dance together with God, trusting Him to lead and to guide you through each season of your life.
This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached. If God has done anything for you in your life, please share this message with someone else .
my fren sent me that e-mailed..so i thought i would just share it around..kinda reflects my personal life with God right now..oh well..shall blog again!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 10/02/2006 11:32:00 pm