Saturday, December 31, 2005
was in church at about 6..was like helping them wrap the gifts..haha..i think im like not cut out to wrap gifts man..so horrible lah the wrapping..hahaha..youth was ok lah..they were playign games after that..then had a sharing by sashi..was a good sermon..thank God..it was literally drilled in..talk about giving thanks to God for everything..really thanked God for everything that He had provided for me this past year..really thanked Him for even giving me this life that i live..that i may live for His glory..and talked about letting God increase and i decrease..haha..i think if i have to make a list of God's goodness in my life this past year..its gonna be a long list..and also the bad things i have done..would be as long..so i guess my new year's resolution is to get my bad list shorter..haha..sounds good to me..haha
after the sermon..had some good food lah..then had gift exchange..too bad din win the lucky draw..not lucky enough..hahha..k lah..i think i wanna go koon liao..cheerios people!
haiz..today ah..i think quite suay lah..went to the barbers at 12 then at 2.30 also not there..sian man..then rushed down to sch to get the management articles..not bad lah..found 2..gim found all 4..wth! hahaha..
was in church at about 6..was like helping them wrap the gifts..haha..i think im like not cut out to wrap gifts man..so horrible lah the wrapping..hahaha..youth was ok lah..they were playign games after that..then had a sharing by sashi..was a good sermon..thank God..it was literally drilled in..talk about giving thanks to God for everything..really thanked God for everything that He had provided for me this past year..really thanked Him for even giving me this life that i live..that i may live for His glory..and talked about letting God increase and i decrease..haha..i think if i have to make a list of God's goodness in my life this past year..its gonna be a long list..and also the bad things i have done..would be as long..so i guess my new year's resolution is to get my bad list shorter..haha..sounds good to me..haha
after the sermon..had some good food lah..then had gift exchange..too bad din win the lucky draw..not lucky enough..hahha..k lah..i think i wanna go koon liao..cheerios people!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/31/2005 12:33:00 am
Thursday, December 29, 2005
was studying just now..when i realised how my spiritual life with God has dipped over the past week? suddenly felt a little empty..though i know i am now back on track..but yea..then it hit me lah..kinda thought that it could be the problem..then the past week i haven been really been earnestly seeking Him like i used too? sitting on the chair to read the bible rather then kneeling down? i guess that is the major thing that is hindering me..coz i really do think that there's a difference when you sit down and read and when you kneel down and read the bible..coz when your actually just sitting down..its like just reading another book..something for knowledge and thats about it..but when your actually on your knees reading the bible..its like something happens in the spiritual realm..its like you're submitting yourself totally to God..recognising that He is Lord of all..and that you really can't do without Him and you just need to fall at His feet to worship Him with everything you have..with the recent late nights..i haven been devoting myself totally to Him at all? normally i would like spend some time playing the guitar and just worship Him with my singing..so maybe i will do just that lah..get myself back on the God's highway of life..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/29/2005 11:27:00 pm
Monday, December 26, 2005
Happy Birthday Jesus!!!
Christmas this year din really felt like it..maybe coz it happened to fall on a sunday..oh well..had fun though..whole day in church then at night went for the music team celebration at sis nancy's house..not bad lah..haha..they were playing zhong ji mi mah..loser eat one bread..haha..20 of us finished roughly about 120 pieces of tuna sandwiches..hahaha..crazy lah they all..oh well..came home was super tired..then haiyah..dun talk about it liao..
you know sometimes when your just blinded by the emotions and circumstances around you that you turn a blind eye to what God is trying to do in your life? then after that..you start feeling guilty and ashamed of yourself for not even TRYING to listen? its like you din even give a shot to try to will yourself to listen to Him and immediately shut yourself off everything and just wanna be disobedient for awhile because whatever your doing seems ok and alright? haiz..i need a breakthrough..a MAJOR one at that..God deliver me now!!
i think its when you fall and sin..then you realise you really fall short of the glory of God? and then you know that your not all that goodie and all that perfect? somehow it serves as a BIG reminder to all of us especially when we sin that on our part we cannot be perfect..but we need God to help us to mold us into His image..having said that..it ain't that easy..oh God..All I need is You!! thank You for dying on the cross that i may live again..thank You for the trials and temptations that come my way because it is at that time when i know i am nothing..and it is at that time when i know only You can make me something..
thank God for Christmas..the time when the love was shown for all of us that He humbly came down to die the sinner's death for us so that we can be made whole..
Happy Birthday Jesus!!!
Christmas this year din really felt like it..maybe coz it happened to fall on a sunday..oh well..had fun though..whole day in church then at night went for the music team celebration at sis nancy's house..not bad lah..haha..they were playing zhong ji mi mah..loser eat one bread..haha..20 of us finished roughly about 120 pieces of tuna sandwiches..hahaha..crazy lah they all..oh well..came home was super tired..then haiyah..dun talk about it liao..
you know sometimes when your just blinded by the emotions and circumstances around you that you turn a blind eye to what God is trying to do in your life? then after that..you start feeling guilty and ashamed of yourself for not even TRYING to listen? its like you din even give a shot to try to will yourself to listen to Him and immediately shut yourself off everything and just wanna be disobedient for awhile because whatever your doing seems ok and alright? haiz..i need a breakthrough..a MAJOR one at that..God deliver me now!!
i think its when you fall and sin..then you realise you really fall short of the glory of God? and then you know that your not all that goodie and all that perfect? somehow it serves as a BIG reminder to all of us especially when we sin that on our part we cannot be perfect..but we need God to help us to mold us into His image..having said that..it ain't that easy..oh God..All I need is You!! thank You for dying on the cross that i may live again..thank You for the trials and temptations that come my way because it is at that time when i know i am nothing..and it is at that time when i know only You can make me something..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/26/2005 03:10:00 pm
Sunday, December 18, 2005
was in church the whole day again..oh well..better then staying home doing nothing right? but kinda tired lah..finally bought a gift for youngest sister..but haiz..still got quite a few gifts i haven buy yet..so yah..need to get them soon lah..sian man..so many things to get..so little time!! stupid poly academic calendar lah..if not i will be like slacking now with the rest of the school kids..hahhahaa..kids!! LOL!! anyway..i wanted to do work lah..but i realised that my orange highlighter is missing!! sian man!!!!!!!!! i always use orange highlighter to highlight my notes..so can't do without it lah..oh well..guess i have to work doubly hard this week..ok..maybe triply hard coz i haven write Christmas cards too!! hahaha..k lah..i think i go play game then go koon liao..cheerios peeps!!
was playing soccer with the youths yesterday..was fun..but yet kinda disappointing lah..coz they din really like play properly..got kinda pissed then left the court and like wanted to leave liao..then they say wanna play properly..so at least had a better game for the past 10mins or so lah..oh well..its just a game anyway..oh well..then went to church to help my dad to set up the puppet stage..apparently i was supposed to be there like 11..i was only ready at about 1..so of coz kena scolded lah..haiz..oh well..kinda expected it lah..came back my leg was cramping like no one's business sia..it almost cramped when i climbed up 4 storeys..then later it really did cramped when i sat down on the couch trying to watch soccer..horrible man..somemore cramped both legs..not enough stretching before playing lah..hahaha..oh well..
was in church the whole day again..oh well..better then staying home doing nothing right? but kinda tired lah..finally bought a gift for youngest sister..but haiz..still got quite a few gifts i haven buy yet..so yah..need to get them soon lah..sian man..so many things to get..so little time!! stupid poly academic calendar lah..if not i will be like slacking now with the rest of the school kids..hahhahaa..kids!! LOL!! anyway..i wanted to do work lah..but i realised that my orange highlighter is missing!! sian man!!!!!!!!! i always use orange highlighter to highlight my notes..so can't do without it lah..oh well..guess i have to work doubly hard this week..ok..maybe triply hard coz i haven write Christmas cards too!! hahaha..k lah..i think i go play game then go koon liao..cheerios peeps!!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/18/2005 10:52:00 pm
Monday, December 12, 2005
was back in school for the first time after a week in church camp..and the first thing that struck me when i was back was: what am i doing back in school??? i rather be in camp lor..just worshipping and hearing the word of God the whole day..so edifying..so fun somemore..just to soak up His presence..the feeling is just too shiok lor..the whole day wasn't really aware of whats going on in school either..haiz..i rather just be in the ministry? hahaha..oh well..another few more weeks lah..just tahan another few more weeks of sch and woohoo!! free from bondage liao!! felt kinda sick when i was in school just now..sneezing so much..came home too medicine..guess its working and taking its effect..and thats why im like feeling so sleepy lor..my eye lids feeling so heavy like kena clamped down like that..think i better go liao..cheery goodbyes!!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/12/2005 09:55:00 pm
Friday, December 09, 2005
this year's camp theme is: To Seek Him..throughout the whole 5days that we were there..all the messages/devotions/sermons were all concentrated in seeking Him..really powerful messages on how to seek Him..and even more..i really can't like type out what the speakers has said over the past few days..but i can really only say that it was a fulfilling time where i broke through into the spiritual realm and God gave me 2 visions during the camp..and i finally really understood the true meaning of what it means "that none shall perish"..on wednesday night..during the altar call..i stood there waiting to be prayed for..and while waiting i told God that i would not stop praying until He gives me a vision or something..and when Sis Seaward came over and laid hands over me..i got slain in the Spirit..and while on the ground..i told God: this time i am not getting up until You grant me a vision Lord, no way am i leaving not being touched by the move of the Holy Spirit. and this was the time when the breakthrough came..God granted me a vision..and in my vision:
i saw throngs of people lining up as if they were queuing for something. the word 'judge' flashed through and i realised that the people that i saw were waiting to be judged. next i saw like a person being thrown down to this place of darkness, i saw him free-falling down towards the end of the dark pit. at this point i realised that this person was going to hell.
after i caught this vision from God..i decided to just wait a little whole more before i got up..and when i got up..i prayed that God to brun the desire within me to send me to the nations and preach the goodnews..big actions for a person with small faith..much lesser commitment? but i really thank God..coz even as i recount this vision that God has given me, i sense the need to go and preach..i sense the need to go forth because every single minute there is someone somewhere out there who is dying and he/she doesn't know Jesus and will soon spend the rest of ETERNITY in hell..who to send? who to send? oh Lord send me, send me!
then on thursday night..the sermon was about interceding and we are all intercessors by our rights given to us by our Father in heaven..i was on to sing..wasn't at the altar..but guess what? God was still there on the stage..when Ps Rajan called us to intercede..i was like sining my heart out..praising, speaking in tongues like no one's business..and i really felt the power of God upon me..and whilst doing it..i saw another vision..short on though..i saw a figure acending up towards heaven..which i do believe is Jesus..and that was what i saw..pretty short..but the vision that was given showed me that Jesus is still truly alive and sitting on the right hand of the throne INTERCEDING for us..woohoo! im like very very happy lor..so exciting!!
after the night service went out for supper and had char kway teow..wah power man!! the best i ever tasted in my whole life!! shiokness only!! then went back got changed and went outside the function rooms there to play some lame games..hahaha..was funny lah..but yah lah..played until 4 am lor!! like slept only 4 hours..but when i woke up i was so refreshed..i think its just God's strength..
ok lah..i think thats the most important parts of the camp for me lah..and of coz getting to know some people better..haha..at least i know they can still tahan my lameness..and of coz i now know cannot suan jane..if not sure cannot niao back..hahahha..
i am finally back from church camp!!! woohoo!! it has been an exciting week alright!! definitely there were breakthroughs in my spiritual life..and i know even when i say this the devil would wanna take hold of the work that God has done in me during the camp..but i know that it would all be futile..coz the devil has no right over me! wahahaha!! i think the feeling is damn shiok now lor..i feel totally refreshed..totally renewed..of coz there will be a time when obstacles may come my way..mountains in my path, but i have a miracle working God!!
this year's camp theme is: To Seek Him..throughout the whole 5days that we were there..all the messages/devotions/sermons were all concentrated in seeking Him..really powerful messages on how to seek Him..and even more..i really can't like type out what the speakers has said over the past few days..but i can really only say that it was a fulfilling time where i broke through into the spiritual realm and God gave me 2 visions during the camp..and i finally really understood the true meaning of what it means "that none shall perish"..on wednesday night..during the altar call..i stood there waiting to be prayed for..and while waiting i told God that i would not stop praying until He gives me a vision or something..and when Sis Seaward came over and laid hands over me..i got slain in the Spirit..and while on the ground..i told God: this time i am not getting up until You grant me a vision Lord, no way am i leaving not being touched by the move of the Holy Spirit. and this was the time when the breakthrough came..God granted me a vision..and in my vision:
i saw throngs of people lining up as if they were queuing for something. the word 'judge' flashed through and i realised that the people that i saw were waiting to be judged. next i saw like a person being thrown down to this place of darkness, i saw him free-falling down towards the end of the dark pit. at this point i realised that this person was going to hell.
after i caught this vision from God..i decided to just wait a little whole more before i got up..and when i got up..i prayed that God to brun the desire within me to send me to the nations and preach the goodnews..big actions for a person with small faith..much lesser commitment? but i really thank God..coz even as i recount this vision that God has given me, i sense the need to go and preach..i sense the need to go forth because every single minute there is someone somewhere out there who is dying and he/she doesn't know Jesus and will soon spend the rest of ETERNITY in hell..who to send? who to send? oh Lord send me, send me!
then on thursday night..the sermon was about interceding and we are all intercessors by our rights given to us by our Father in heaven..i was on to sing..wasn't at the altar..but guess what? God was still there on the stage..when Ps Rajan called us to intercede..i was like sining my heart out..praising, speaking in tongues like no one's business..and i really felt the power of God upon me..and whilst doing it..i saw another vision..short on though..i saw a figure acending up towards heaven..which i do believe is Jesus..and that was what i saw..pretty short..but the vision that was given showed me that Jesus is still truly alive and sitting on the right hand of the throne INTERCEDING for us..woohoo! im like very very happy lor..so exciting!!
after the night service went out for supper and had char kway teow..wah power man!! the best i ever tasted in my whole life!! shiokness only!! then went back got changed and went outside the function rooms there to play some lame games..hahaha..was funny lah..but yah lah..played until 4 am lor!! like slept only 4 hours..but when i woke up i was so refreshed..i think its just God's strength..
ok lah..i think thats the most important parts of the camp for me lah..and of coz getting to know some people better..haha..at least i know they can still tahan my lameness..and of coz i now know cannot suan jane..if not sure cannot niao back..hahahha..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/09/2005 09:44:00 pm
Sunday, December 04, 2005
woohoo!! going church camp liao!! so i will be away for 1 whole week!! 5th-9th dec..yahoo!! if you guys need to contact me, i will be bringing my handphone along lah..so you guys can contact me if you NEED to..i stress if only theres a NEED..haha..anyway..if you guys want anything..just tell me..most likely would be just bringing some gum back for whoever wants lah..'special requests' personally ask me lah..see if can help anot lah..oh well..guess i better get going le..need to sleep man..deprived of sleep for the past 2 days liao..kk..ciao peeps!! dun miss me!!! hahaha..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/04/2005 11:30:00 pm
Thursday, December 01, 2005
woohoo!! tml my birthday liao!! hahhaa..must thank my sisters! got my this towel in this capsule keychain..haha..then they had this card made with my face on the front of the card! hahaha..jane was saying that was to remind me of my narcissitic self..thanks lor..hahahhaa..parents gave me an hongbao!! woohoo!! ahhaha..must spend wisely wor! haha..i took a picture of what i got!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 12/01/2005 09:27:00 pm