Sunday, November 27, 2005
You clothed me in righteousness.
You turned my mourning into dancing.
You have given me a garmet of praise.
ok..im like so decided..though its like kinda super late or what..but i will try with all that i can to go church camp..argh..dunno lah..dunno why in the first place i so hesistant about going..this and that..but these few weeks its been a struggle..rather a very secret struggle whether to go or not to go..but now i just cant take it..i dunno why le..but its just that my heart feel so heavy everytime church camp is mentioned..i mean its like just some vacation to malaysia with the rest of the church..but the thing is that something else is drawing me there other then the fun that i will have..other then school..hmm..i will try to talk to my dad..
"Oh Lord! I am willing! Please give me a miracle!"
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/27/2005 07:16:00 pm
totally distressed.
utterly disappointed.
disgracefully shamed.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/27/2005 06:35:00 pm
Monday, November 21, 2005
finally my turn to lead worship this friday..the day that i have been so looking forward to is finally here..only for me to start getting anxious and all..hahaha..i think its just so human? hahaha..but i have a extra-ordinary God..so who cares about anxiety? LOL! anyway..i left one more song to pick..so pray for me lah..pray that i can get that song..and pray for God's blessing to be upon the service! that God will move during the service!!! woohoo!! now im all excited..the anxiety gone!! woohooo!! k lah..guess i better be gone le..ciao peeps!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/21/2005 11:28:00 pm
Sunday, November 20, 2005
was inspired to write a song just now..but apparently ran out of ideas on the starting part..lol..anyway..i wun give up on writing a song so easily lah..its part of what i wanna accomplish..must pray for God's guidance lor..hahaha..oh well..just wanted to blog this down..hahaha..too nua to do my work liao..sian tml monday liao..so fast the weekend just pass like nothing like that..ah..oh well..i go koon liao..ciao peeps!~
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/20/2005 11:20:00 pm
was so high with God only to fell again..Lord Lord..how long more? how long more will my deliverance come? will You not hear my desperate cries? will You just pass me by? oh Lord..how great Thou art! that i know my time will come..when deliverance will come..when i will set free from the bondage..when my goliath will come crashing down..
was talking to jane when she told me that her friend accepted the Lord and she was happy and all..and she showed me the conversation between the both of them..now i truly understand what it feels to be standing on the line..Jesus or nothing..and i finally understand the joy of salvation..i never got to understand or even feel what its like..but when i read the conversation..i just truly understood what it really meant..i thank God for showing me another truth today even when im not right with God..thank God anyway!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/20/2005 09:25:00 pm
Saturday, November 19, 2005
when i have finally seen the glimmer of hope for my jericho to fall..only to know that im not done with marching around it long enough..the israelites took 7days..on the 7th day they marched 7 times..and they blew the trumpets with all their might and the walls came crushing down..but for me? oh Lord!! help me now! its really spiritual warfare that im facing right now..especially when your high with God..and your doing stuffs pleasing in God's eyes..only to have the devil and his puny minions come knocking at your door looking for trouble..well..yeah..rightly said..they looking for trouble..coz im the King's kid!! mwhahahhaa..no weapon that raised against me shall prosper! amen! and suddenly the spiritual warfare that was waged against me just stopped! thank God really for His hand of protection and for keeping me! ok..i think its time for me to go do my daily devotion liao..ciaoz peeps..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/19/2005 10:27:00 pm
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
ah..completely tired out! but phew!! at least im still surviving lah..haha..first time in my life 12 hours straight of school..lectures and tutorials..self study..woohoo!! though im like really really tired..but im really very proud of myself for not giving up lor..haha really really lor..if it was before attachment or my FYP..i would have really just went home and skipped the lecture altogether..but really thank God that He put me to some tests and showed me some stuff during my attachment and i guess i have pretty much mature from the past lah..i think since its like the last semester liao..might as well give it my best shot..though late..but better late then never at all..besides army time coming soon..and i think it would be good to start getting disciplined at least mentally before enlisting in lor..so at least my time inside army will be easier to take lah..
haha..kinda noticed that my life with God recently has taken to a new height..well thats partly me that i decided to start treating life seriously and not to fool around anymore..i really have been doing my quiet time with God on bended knees..though the time i spent with God is not sufficient at least what i think is not, but really i thought it really helped me to get closer to God..and i really have been seeing His goodness and revelation in my life recently..how much He has revealed to me the past days have even deepen my love for Him..that i really know without God..im really nothing..and apparently the song Amazed just started playing on my windows media player..woohoo!!! im so excited what God is doing, and is going to do in my little life to achieve great things for Him!!
kk peeps..think i gotta go slp soon..maybe after my qt..so yah..cheerios!!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/15/2005 11:34:00 pm
Monday, November 14, 2005
first day of the 2nd week of school..kinda boring to have SFG lecture as the first lecture of the day of the week..oh well..not too bad i guess..but just that when i was in lectures in school today..was yawning alot and not really concentrating on what was being thought..was just dreaming and stoning and stuffs lah..could be because of the wedding lah..maybe was just too tired..but i was also dreaming about my wedding..lol..ah well..
anyway..today my mum sms me that if i wanna go church camp and apporval have to be sought, i have to do it by today..went to the director office..both him and his deputy not around..went to dr how's office then when i told him i was told that i cannot have official leave for it..and he referred me to Romans 13..to be subjected to the authority that has been placed and set by God..well it din really help me in any case lah..gim ann was telling me that he even refer the bible to me liao..so why continue to insist..well the point was that i really really wanna go church camp..i thought maybe i really need to go to the camp..and i wasn't really in the mood to go argue what the bible says..what i wanted was just to get approval for me to go church camp..period.
when i was back home..i thought about what dr how said..then i was thinking is that just an excuse for me to not continue to persist in my search for approval for my leave? is this what the devil wants? that i do not get to go and grab hold of God's truth at the camp? is this the time to get drawn away by what the world wants and miss God's blessings and teaching? but i came into a conclusion..though i am subjected to an authority..a human authority..but this human authority has no direct authority over me because i am the King's son and God's will is for me to go forth to all the earth and preach the good news..without a time for equipping (at church camp) i would not be able to go and do that..but then again..i have tried everything human..every possible way i could think of, i have been rejected time and time again..how much my flesh part of me wants to go to the camp..but my spirit wants to obey God..and if it really is God's will for me to stay in singapore this year and miss the camp..i think i will..and surprisingly when i made that conclusion..my mp3 started to play How Great is our God..its like somehow of a confirmation that i made the right decision to trust in the Lord and give Him everything because He will settle it..His ways are really way way beyond ours..His thoughts are beyond human logic and reasoning..so i really wanna thank God..though i am really really very sadden that i really can't go (i thought i would cry when i knew i couldn't go at all lah)..but guess what? He really is beyond our comprehension (and my media player just started I Stand in Awe of You - Beautiful Beyond Description)..no one can grasp His infinite wisdom..but i really thank God for putting me though this trial..though small..but it taught me something very very important that was to really trust in the Lord and not lean on my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5)..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/14/2005 08:16:00 pm
Sunday, November 13, 2005
zzz..very tired liao..just back from the wedding dinner of john and valerie..the dinner was held at rasa sentosa shangri-la..well..food was ok lah..nothing fantastic..nothing to complain..so ok lah..hahaha..the strange thing was the seating arrangement..my dad sat with the rest of the pastors..then left me with my mum, 2 sisters and my maid..then the rest of the table was shared with valerie's colleagues..ladies to be in fact..so it was like one guy in the entire table..talked abt being awkard..hahaa..ok lah..my dad was suaning me that im the thorn among the roses..but be glad there's a thorn there lor..if not roses wouldn't be roses afterall..hahahaha..but overall not bad lah..somemore got girl to see..lol..ok..never mind about that..but i realise that teachers can be cranky..even more cranky then the kids..haha..no wonder they have the ability to teach the kids lah..hahha..ok lah..there was this 2 teachers are vegetarian at my table..so poor thing lor..everything they ate were just mock food..doesn't look very appetising lor..thank God i can eat normally!! hahaha..today before the dinner i finally abit of my recorded singing on the church wedding..i must say that it was quite well done..well done clement..but most importantly..all praises goes to God! thank You God!! without You i would not have been able to sing so well!! woohoo!!
kk..i think thats it for the day lah..kinda tired now liao..or rather very tired lor..hahaha..ok lah..i need to slp liao..ciao peeps!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/13/2005 11:44:00 pm
Saturday, November 12, 2005
went to john and valerie's wedding today..was the backup singer and the special number guy..and by order of my boss..i had to wear a coat lor..fierce man..hahahhaa..first time in all my life im putting on a coat..and presenting a special number to the wedding couple..chose Unfailing Love by Chris Tomlin as the song..was really nervy and all before the thing coz i was real afraid that i would miss the intro and come in at the wrong time..or if not i would just start screeching at the high pitch parts..and when that happens..i would really literally dig a hole on stage and bury my head in as deep as i can lah..but guess what??? nothing of that sort happened!! thank God!! really need to thank jane too for praying for me!! God really hears His children's prayers..thank God that everything went well..after the whole wedding..people came up to tell me that i have a good voice and i sang well etc etc..but really really it wasn't me that sang well..it really was God..really really was God that helped me through..i really think that if it was 100% me..it would have been 200% disaster..but precisely it was 0%..everything to God..thats why it was so successful..i really cant thank God enough lah..hahaha..thank You God!!!!
then came back totally tired out lah..tried to study or something..but i just gave up the idea lah..i thought i really was just too tired..until i drank 2 cups of coffee..now like body in overdrive mode..and my left hand the muscles overworked..coz maybe coz of the cs lah..hahaha..played maybe abt 30mins to 45mins..haha..not bad leh..this time really got control..woohoo!! thank God for giving me discipline these days lor..woohoo!! im happy..are you happy?? coz Jesus makes me happy!!
kk..i think i really need to try to slp so that i can wake up tml morning..ciao peeps!!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/12/2005 11:17:00 pm
Thursday, November 10, 2005
tiring man today..was in school at about 9 for marketing for life sciences..ah..i must say that its a pretty interesting module lah..especially the lecturer..hahahaha..so funny lah..at least another module with an interesting lecturer..make my last sem at NYP much better..later went to the library to borrow some books lah..actually my decision was to come back home to study one lah..but while walking out of NYP after psed by gim ann..i saw weisheng walking to the library..so he dragged me all the way back to the library to study lah..haha..ok lah..at least i managed to read finish one journal paper for drug development..found an article for EBM..found more..and im halfway into the proteomics journal paper..so not so bad lah..though not as productive as i thought out to be..well..can't complain lah..so i left school for music practice at 6..today wierd lah..decided to take the train..haha..oh well..
was at music practice..learnt some new songs..Amazed - Desperation Band..woohoo..what a nice song..really nice song..then when they finally finished the practice my turn for the wedding lah..hahhaa..guess not too bad lah..hopefully nothing happens on that day..but i know with God's strength and guidance, He will see me through it lah..
anyway, about the new song..im listening to it now..dunno repeat for dunno how many times liao..but i have been hearing it ever since i reached home..so almost 40mins liao..everytime i hear it..it just touches me..really really..really makes me feel liek crying..it just..though its just a song about us being amazed by God..but the real meaning behind it is about God's love..that no matter how many times i turned away from Him..no matter how many times i have sinned against Him..how many times i rejected Him..no matter what i do wrong..He's always there..not only there..but He's always there to shower His love over my imperfection..it just breaks my heart..its heart wrenching that i can do all that to Him, deserving nothing good in return..but He ups the ante..He gave me love..and that was what i needed..but He gave it abundantly..*sobs*
My heart aches for You
For what You gave on calvary
The world couldn't offer
Each time i turned away
You were there to love me
Is there anyone on earth
and in Heaven that can compare to You
Shame and guilt was all i had
But You washed me clean
And gave me a robe of righteousness
Clothed in love and mercy
That i may once again dance in Your presence
Proclaiming of Your love
That has set me free
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/10/2005 11:14:00 pm
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
3rd day of school..din really had much lessons today..just had one drug development lecture then went for MBID tutorial..then can go home liao! hahaha..lecture started at 12 lah..then i slept until 11..wake up, bath change then go sch liao..machiam like pig lor..hhahaha..well..but din go home after that lah..stayed for this Thailand trip briefing..they planning to go next march..haha..dunno whether can open for outsiders..but they planning to have abt 18-25 participants to go there..like very very tight budget lah..$300 for the whole thing..thought was too little..thats like including transport, accomodation everything..i think by the time you reach there your left with only $100..then the thing is that there will be a chance that money need to be spent lah..oh well..i think i leave it to the organisers to decide lah..
had cell group today..was talking about loving your enemies..was talking to jane online yesterday..gave her proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."
the passage was read today at cell group lah..i thought it was like God's double confirmation for her lor..haha..thank God lah..i think this bible verse really applies to our or at least my daily life..sometimes i really rely too much on myself..and its like always me myself and i..and never God first..He's like always last on the list lor..even like fall sick..dun pray go see doctor immediately..eat medicine..then cannot recover then start praying..haiz..sometimes i dunno what to say leh..whether to pity God that He has to tahan such people..i think i would rather learn to love Him more..to really cling onto Him..with all my 4 limbs..just grab him tightly..never letting go..maybe thats what i shld do..maybe thats what i need to do right now..oh God..HERE I COME!!! hahahaha..but really thank God lah..its always Him who provides my miracles..
ok..i think its time for me to stop blogging liao..nitez people! ciaoz!~
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/09/2005 11:23:00 pm
Monday, November 07, 2005
today first day of school..2hours lecture..1 1/2 hr break then another 2 hrs lecture..some of them went novena to kia kia..but i decided to come home lah..when i reached home i was like super tired..shagged out..like i went to exercise or something like that lah..really tired..even when i sat down on the couch to watch tv i just dose off..took a power nap of 10mins then had kopi..and then i was good to go..hahaha..was on the net..surprisingly i did a short revision of today's lectures..haha..never seen before..haha..somemore first day of school nia..not bad liao wor! hahahaha..k lah..i think i need to go slp liao..tml long day..8-5..peng! haha..ciaoz peeps! cheerios!~
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/07/2005 10:50:00 pm
Saturday, November 05, 2005
woohoo!! 2 more days before school starts..abit apprehensive abt it though..not sure how im going to pull through it..but yah..i know God will be there lah..so i no need worry! hahaha..nothing much today lah..just that i ate alot..too much for a regular day..haha..had KFC for dinner..haha..tks to my little sis..haha..but yah lah..sooo full now lor..
so was watching soccer halfway when the door bell rang..the neighbours!! yes if you din noe i have malay neighbours..and how nice of them lor..though at night liao..they brought food over..hahaha..really kind of them to do that lah..they came over once, twice, three times in fact! hahaha..so cute lah..tell them goodnight like 3 times? LOL!! forget to bring this over lah..forget to bring that over..hahaha..so funny..my sisters and my mum were in the kitchen laughing until like mad lor..hahahaha..but really nice to have good neighbours lah..
so everytime they give us something we always give them back something lah..just being polite lah..so my mum was suggesting to buy them a hamper or something..took over this brochure on hampers lah..so whilst browsing through it..i saw those cutesy stuffs..you know those with bears, chocs and flowers? yah..hahaha..suddenly the feminine side of me kicked in..hmmm..in my heart was like very nice ah..very nice..wah this one very cute leh..and then it occured to me..i think im a HOPELESS romantic..haha..thinking how to propose..at the beach with the sun setting on the horizon? or parachuting down with a banner on my leg? [thats dangerous!! kids dun try this at home!] or have her room filled with red roses and have a proposal banner strapped across the room? if not go to the BIG and i mean HUGE ferris wheel in london and propose to her with the midnight sky around us? i think the more i think of it..the more i get caught into it..hahaha..but seriously man..i really think im one BIG..literally hopeless romantic..hows that for being metrosexual? ahhahaha..oh well..guess the time will come when i have to get a girlfren..hahaha..okok..i know clement getting a gf is a BIG deal..but so what? hahahaha..soon yea? hahaha..ok lah..i think i go koon liao..need to wake up early tml..dunno how to sleep with me feeling so full lah..kk..nitez peeps!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/05/2005 11:06:00 pm
Friday, November 04, 2005
ok..i seriously didn't know that there was a midi being played..i did saw the coding on the html..but i thought it didn't work coz the midi would have most likely been taken down already..oh..anyway..i may change it..if not i will just take out the coding for that altogether..haha
anyway..was back in school just now to collect my lecture notes for next week..actually was more like some sort of having lunch with lisa and xiu wen..before that..i actually thought i lost my set of house keys..freaked me out lah..coz you know my sling bag ah..the sling came lose and the bag flew out..with my side pouch zip opened..so i actually thought the set of keys actually dropped lah..scully it was on the side pouch..thank God lah..ahhaa..anyway back to lunch..lisa didn't wanna drive lah..she got no money..so no petrol..haha..so funny lah..coz we wanted to go j8..then she saw take cab go..im like..hmmmm..no money to put petrol..but got money to take cab? hmmmmmmmmmm..haha..oh well..better not comment too much..hahaha..went to eat mos burger..had teriyaki chicken burger set..yummy..so during lunch..gim ann was talking abt his friend lah..so he posed us this question..
what do you like? to love or be loved??
well..most gave the answer to love..only that girl lisa say one both! greedy pig! LOL..anyway..if you were wondering what answer i gave..its to love lah..haha..i mean its what Jesus did right? He din came to this world to be loved..but rather to love..how's that for being Christ-like? and thats what is call love..kinda complicated..haha..
after lunch took cab back to sch..today is farah's last day at school..quite sad lah..see a good lecturer go..haiz..sadded lah..2 yrs of teaching us..oh well..i guess its a sooner or later thing lah..at least she would be doing something she prefers lah..all the best ms farah! haha
and here's the very sad part..some of you know how bad i wanted to go for church camp this year..it was such a huge desperation lah..its like i would be missing out on the biggest thing of the year lor!! so when i was back in sch..went to speak with ms leong..guess what she said? cannot..it would be straight refusal! wah piang eh!!! i really dunno what to do now lor!!! i think now i truly understand how a desperate person feels like leh..he's just practically helpless..and thats my feeling right now..and i believe helpless is an understatement in my case lor..argh!! church camp!! i wanna go!!!!!!! haiz..how how how? i think like that is really only God can pave the way..come to think of it..maybe God has better plans for me to miss this year's church camp lah..haiz..but i still damn sad lah..thanks to stupid MOE..crap sia..say like the poly kids got so much time on the their hands lah..what lah..all that government crap..in the end contradict each other..sometime u really dunno if you shld be angry or laugh at their decisions..*speechless*
haiz..enough of that sad stuff..but i still WANNA GO CHURCH CAMP!!! boohoohoo!! sian..God please pave a way for me if its Your will for me to go lah..i really dun wanna skip school without official leave to go church camp..God please provide a miracle for me! if not show me Your ways that i may understand!
came back home then went for youth..worship was good..as usual..derek was preaching today..kinda wierd to see him on stage talking without the guitar hanging on the strap on his shoulders..haha..oh well..i think i better get some sleep liao..its actually already 2+ gonna 3 liao..just that i set my blogged time on the previous day's entry lah..coz like that easier to read mah..ok..better go orh orh liao! ciao ppl! cheerios!~
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/04/2005 11:50:00 pm
Thursday, November 03, 2005
have been thinking and pondering over some stuffs the past few days..hmm..maybe i think i really should put an end to some stuffs in my life..i think its really time to throw down what is not needed in my life to really take up the cross and follow Christ..but the problem with old clement cheong is that sometimes or most of the time he only talk hot air..and thats probably the only thing he can do properly..oh God help me!!! haha..but seriously man..i really think its time to put an end to some stuffs in my life..to really wise up my thinking..ah well..i think all i need now is God and Him alone..
All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord
All I need is You
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/03/2005 11:22:00 pm
yay!! finally done with changing my blogskin!!! hahaha..after much hesistation..ok rather LAZINESS!! hahaha..finally got it done lah..i was saying i wanted to change this blogskin for like months now lah..and i finally did it!! haha..finally got this lazy bum to work! hahaha..what an accomplishment..haha..oh well...hope you guys like this new layout..at least something fresh rather then the previous with undisplayed pictures..hahaha..well i actually chose this skin coz of the story that should bhbe scrolling by the side of the entries..its footprints by the sand..very meaningful story i would say..will leave the story for you to read..in the mean time..im gonna enjoy the last few days of my hols..
to those university students who are gonna take their exams..ALL THE BEST!!!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/03/2005 11:10:00 pm
hmm..was thinking to change the blog skin now..hmm..maybe i shld..hmm..maybe i would..so just watch for this space right here..
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 11/03/2005 10:08:00 pm