-glory in the highest.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Well, had the vocal session today. It went kinda smooth, except when I was presenting on a song, got kinda nervy throughout the song. Difficult to gain composure when you're performing for people you don't know. Anyway, hoping to learn more from those sessions.
Just noticed something. Joseph actually told me this already, but I didn't experience it till now, my lovely dog pictures aren't loading!!! ARGH!!! So i think its time to change template, AGAIN! YES! AGAIN! ARGH!!! Anyway, I would be changing it soon, so fret not! Hahah! Ok, gtg now, need my beauty sleep right now. Ciaoz!~

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/29/2004 11:39:00 pm

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Firstly got to thank some people. KJ and eby for letting me eat that super spicy indon chicken rice at suntec on friday. Sara and company for going to katong to have laksa. I am like coughing now!!! Grr!!! You guys! I am like gonna have a sore throat anytime soon, and I am not really loving it! ARGH!!! Suppose to have vocal training this wednesday, guess wouldn't be having an all too good session then. Oh well, sorry if I blame you guys, but its all YOUR fault! Hhaha...kidding, kidding. Anyway, had loads of fun after the youth service. Went to east coast there for some mid-autumn celebration thing. First part of the program we were like practically bored to death. Burning candles, and boxes and ants, and what have you. Then when the rest of them came, it became much more livelier. Danny started to burn the lanterns! DUH!~ Kinda stupid, coz he was like swinging the whole lantern, trying to burn it. In the end, he decided to just get the flame near the lantern so that the whole thing would burn. Haha. So funny. Then when we left, danny, eby and me were like hugging each other. Hahha. So sweet, then kelda was like, eh? whassup with these people? Haha. Then i started to sing the barney song: I love you, you love me. Hahha, then she went, oh my goodness. Hhaha! Anyway, better get back to doing bioinformatics. Its like due tml, and I am still stuck somewhere halfway. Ciaoz!~

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/26/2004 10:23:00 pm

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Just couldn't continue on doing my bioinformatics assignment if I didn't blog now! Have been distracted by alot of things recently that I haven't put focus on the right things in my life. Have been trying to find the real root cause of it, but all to no avail. So where have I really gone wrong? Is it that I have been on the computer for many hours, or is it that I have the wrong mindset about school? Or is that I haven't been focusing on God recently? Everything to me just seems to be a blank, its as if my world has just came to a standstill, a crossroad. Where to turn now Lord? Left? Right? Straight? Help me Lord! Put me on the right track!

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/23/2004 11:14:00 pm

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Super tired today. Was in class since 8, all the way till like 3? Coz we had the medical microbiology presentation and it ended late. Today's presentation wasn't that good since I was like kinda nervous here and there, and the questions that Ms Farah had shot our group really caught us unprepared. Hopefully she will be lenient with the grading though, if not I am like so dead. Then went to this NE talk at the auditorium, kinda boring since the presenter practically talking to himself for that one hour I was there. Slept for like almost 20-30mins. Kinda good rest. After the talk, went down to the basketball courts there for games with the primers. So hot outside today. Was playing basketball halfway, when I felt kinda dizzy (went to the doctors just yesterday, no low blood though, just that she said need to rest more, that's all) so decided to take a rest there. Fortunately, felt better after awhile, then joined the game again. Kinda fun today, since its been a few weeks since I last played with them. After the games, had a change of shirt then went to Mac for a drink, sat there for awhile drinking coke and sprite (so sinful after running around! ahha!), talked with them there, making jokes. Headed home at abt 7pm, came home almost 7.40pm. Went to bath then went for cellgrp, dozed off a few times since I was really dead tired. Anyway, really got to go to sleep before one day I really *peng* Haha! Gotta take my medication also. Gd nite everyone!

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/22/2004 11:25:00 pm

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Before I continue to blog on, just wanna say a big sorry for my anger. Not gonna try to defend myself for being angry at people, just that they came and spoke some things to me at the wrong time. Just wasn't right to be angry at them. So forgive me people for some harsh words that were being spoken. Hope you guys will forgive me though.

Have been really sick and tired of everything recently. Work work and more work, just too much for me to handle. With all that more extra stuff to handle, I being to ponder everyday when God will come and pick me and bring me up to heaven where there will be no more pain, no more suffering. Just praising Him daily in His courts. How I wish it would just come through right now. I really don't wanna continue this life anymore, all the temptations, the pains, the sufferings. But as I look into it, Paul told the Corinthians (if I am not wrong) to "press on towards the goal" the goal which is heaven. Its hard to persevere on when you can't really see that finish line ahead of you, but I know beyond this thick fog, over that horizon, the finishing line awaits me. "Lord help me to press on towards the goal! Help me to put you first in my life too." that should be my daily cry to the Lord. Its just too hard to continue on without the Lord's guidance. So much for all that. Think I really need to get back in tune with the Lord once more. Been looking to my left and right, not focusing and fixing my eyes on the Lord lately. In the meantime need to seek the Lord for forgiveness and for reassurance once more. Its just been tough lately.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/19/2004 10:47:00 pm

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Yes, I am damn pissed off by some very "considerate" people around me. I am like so tired and depressed already, and here they come telling me this and that, why I didn't do this and that. Jumping to conclusions without even opening their eyes. I am like having high blood pressure right now thanks to these people who I deem as friends. I mean, what are friends for? Yeah right! To heck with these people.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/18/2004 11:47:00 pm

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Was surfing the net, when I saw this game, since I was bored, decided to create an account for myself. So please help me click the link:

http://www.kingsofchaos.com/recruit.php?uniqid=w2bw95z9

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/16/2004 07:09:00 pm

Had a very bad, lousy day today. Rather more disappointed and demoralised. Results of the common tests were out today, and of course I wasn't all that anxious about the results, because I know what was ahead of me. Roughly expected what I should have gotten, but it wasn't the case, it was worst. Well, now I can't blame anyone or anything. Just blame it on some bad time management, bad judgement, and blame it on myself for not even putting in the effort to really study for the tests. Had thought it would have been a breeze, but it just wasn't so. Looking back, it was all my fault for not managing my time properly, and not being focused on my work enough. Was talking to geraldine on the way home when we were walking towards the MRT station, what she said was true though. Don't cry over spilt milk, but instead look ahead and see what can be done and put your heart to it. Gosh! If I had known. Why must I always be so stubborn to learn it the hard way? Is it just human nature to experience it, rather then listening to other people's advices? Really feel very down-casted. For those who wanna know my results, please! please! don't ask. Yes, I fear reality, the truth! But I fear even more looking back and regretting not doing what was supposed to be done. Just know that its not that good. Think I really must work out some sort of schedule to make sure things get done before the exams arrive. Don't wanna burn the midnight oil and think I can just scrap through year 2 like how I did i year 1.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/16/2004 06:45:00 pm

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Went pulau tekong today to the BMTC center. When we arrived there, the sea breeze was totally wonderful! It felt so relaxing to be around that area. But the main island itself was humid, so was thankful for that breeze. Watched a video, then proceeded to tour the place. Was at the SOC (standard obstacle course) first. Saw some of the army guys there training, looking at them gives me more motivation to slim down. Seriously speaking, i really wanna get into OCS, be an officer. So if i am to go into OCS, first thing is to get trimmed and fit. Should really start the running routine soon. Then proceeded on to some presentations on the army fatigue, items issued out to the recruits, and the combat rations. Surprisingly, the combat rations taste better then i expected it to be. Haha! Then went on to the IMT center where the recruits start their marksmanship training. Had a go at it, all shots went right into the head. Proud of myself for that small sccomplishment, though its actually nothing much. Heehee^^. Anyway, after the whole trip there, was actually pretty impressed by the place, gives me abit more motivation to get fitter, and more confidence that the army actually ain't that bad after all.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/15/2004 11:32:00 pm

Monday, September 13, 2004

guess at the rate i am going doing stuffs, gonna fall ill anytime soon. gosh. i am likfe having the flu bug already. better make sure i rest well these few days man. if not its gonna be a horrible few weeks for me.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/13/2004 01:16:00 am

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Lord you see so far away, a million miles away. I need You here Lord!

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/12/2004 10:10:00 pm

Saturday, September 11, 2004

You know, sometimes I wonder why do I have to put up with idiots and spastic people that are around me. Just so ignorant, so insensitive. I mean why in the world do I even want to put up with some people in the BB. Every saturday go back, waste a few hours of my time where I can use it as leisure time or time for studies to go back and help out? What in the world did I do to deserve this kind of treatement? I try so hard, so very hard, but in the end, it all comes to nothing, naught. Why do I even thought of trying in the first place? But the Lord prompted me:

"My son, why I died on the cross, I did nothing wrong. I was perfect and pure, holy and sinless. I didn't deserve to die on the cross, to be whipped for nothing, to be insulted and spat at on the face. I did everything for you. I did ALL these just for you! Because I love you, that's why I did this for you. I have forgiven you of your wrongdoings, your sins, your anger and everything that you had done. Go and do likewise so that people will know you are a light unto the world. I will give you strength, peace, love, joy, forgivness, mercy in abundance to tide you through. So go and forgive and make peace with your brothers before you come unto me."

Forgiving is just so difficult. So is anger difficult to control. I almost lost my head, lost my temper at a person just now. Was having a bad day since last night. It just because of molecular genetics I guess. I know I am just going to flunk it, something which I could have pass, I am actually gonna flunk it. I was totally exhausted, burnt out, and here this guy comes to taunt me. What am I suppose to do? I really really almost lifted my clenched fist already, ready to give that guy a thrashing. But the Lord knew my intentions, He kept my hands from moving. And I simply walked away from the crowd and left for home by myself. Come to think of it, the bible did say, flee from evil. Guess that was what the Lord had helped me to do. Think I feel much better now, buut maybe going to pray about it and commit to the Lord. No point keeping those hurtful feelings, just gonna hurt me deeper. Let Him deal with it.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/11/2004 11:44:00 pm

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Eby was doing the company anniversary's newsletter or something, so he managed to get hold of this picture in the BB room. Now that eby has reminded me about this picture being taken in sec3, come to think of it, i think it was taken in sec3. Haha. Poor memory. Anyway, i still miss those days together with my batch of people crapping around, doing stupid things. Especially elijah! Haha! That joker! Those were the days. Serious.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/09/2004 08:37:00 pm

Taken from KJ's blog:

Johnny went to his mother demanding a new bicycle. His mother said, "Well Johnny, it isn't Christmas and we don't have the money to just go out and buy you anything you want. So, why don't you write a letter to Jesus and pray for one instead."After being sent to his room for throwing a tantrum, Johnny finally decided to sit down to write a letter to Jesus.

"Dear Jesus,I've been a good boy this year and would appreciate a new bicycle."
Your friend,
Johnny

Johnny knew that he wasn't totally honest, so he tore it up and tried again.

"Dear Jesus,I've thought about being a good boy this year. Can I have a new bicycle?"
Signed,
Johnny

This time, Johnny looked deep down into his heart and realised that this was not true either. He crushed up the letter, threw it into the rubbish bin and ran out of the house. After wandering around aimlessly, he found himself in front of a church.Johnny went inside and was looking at all the statues when all of a sudden, he grab a small one and ran out the door. He went home, hid it under his bed and wrote this letter.

"Jesus,I've broken most of the Ten Commandments, thrown stones at my friends, wrecked my sister's Barbie doll and lots more. I'm desperate and I've got Your mama. If you ever want to see her again, give me a bike."
Signed,
You know who

whahahah!!! Stupid boy!

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/09/2004 09:44:00 am

Yea, finally made up my mind to sign up for the vocal course. SHould do some good in increasing my vocal range. Means can reach higher notes!^^ Hahaha. Anyway, today gonna have bioinformatics test and I am seriously not sure what he's gonna put for 40MCQs and 5 Short Questions. The book is already so thin + the practicals, he would have to cover every word in the book in order to set this test! Grr! And I am feeling so exhausted now. Never felt so before. All I feel like doing is to sleep. Speaking of which, almost slept during the protein technology paper yesterday. I had like one leg in lalala land all the time during the test. Dozed off once actually. Oh well, think I gonna "buang" the paper anyway. Geez...Guess I gonna take a short nap now. Wake up to study bioinformatics again.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/09/2004 09:36:00 am

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

I have finally made my decision. Yes! I am going for vocal training. Looking forward to it even though I have a busy schedule ahead of me. Really excited to extend my interests in singing. Haha! Hopefully can hit higher notes after the lessons. Heehee! Anyway, kinda bored now. Really no mood to study bioinformatics anyway, so I am here blogging. Had 3 papers so far, and from all 3, I still think Immunology is the easier paper among the 3. Maybe because the interest is there? Bioprocess, Protein Tech, Bioinformatics just ain't what I am looking for when I step out to work in the industry. Its just bores me to death! Argh! Can't I just take the modules I like/prefer? ZZZ! Anyway, guess I better get back to studying before I start thinking I am going to fail bioinformatics. Ciaoz!~

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/08/2004 11:24:00 pm

Monday, September 06, 2004

Now I am caught between going for vocal training and keyboard training. Cause I am not really sure what should I go for. One hand, is that I love to sing, by going for the training, I can actually increase my vocal range and learn to sing much better. But on the other hand, there has been this strong feeling in me recently to make music unto the Lord. Maybe its God telling me to take up keyboard. Was talking to jeremy just now, he told me to like go fasting and prayer or something like that. Hmm. Maybe I should do something like that.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/06/2004 09:32:00 pm

Sunday, September 05, 2004

You guys should know of the crisis that is happening in Russia. Innocent lives that were taken. Was reading this article:

http://www.cnn.com/2004/WORLD/europe/09/04/russia.school/index.html

Its very saddening to see innocent lives being taken away by terrorists, especially children dying. My heart goes out to the parents and families of those who lost their loved ones in the seige. May God be with you.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/05/2004 01:12:00 am

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Was quite happy just now since I finally managed to finish molecular genetics! Gosh! Its been so long since I started on it and I am finally through with it! Gah! Anyway, went our for dinner with my family at AMK. Had teochew porridge. Yummy! After that my mum suggested to go to Causeway point, and I went, WTH? I am like kinda sloppy, hair not gelled, and there's this gravy stain on my shorts which I also don't know where the heck it come from. Was complaining about the stain at the hawker center when my dad said it dropped from the sky. Duh! Anyway, grabbed a new wallet over at Causeway point. I may be like regretting it now since the wallet may be too big for my liking. Oh well. Yea, got to get back to study.

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/04/2004 11:53:00 pm

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Phew! Finally finish medical microbiology. Hhaha! At least can start on other topics. And my youngest sisters friends are at my house! Argh! Trying to study here and there the are, having fun! Add on the humid weather, and you will see me stucked in front of the computer instead of mugging! ZZZ

Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 9/01/2004 04:23:00 pm