Friday, July 30, 2004
had a really bad day really. when i reached school in the morning, i had this terrible mood swing or something, then i lost my temper at peiye over some small little thing. this is one of the few times i actually lost my temper in front of my friends. not sure why, maybe because of the stress that i am experiencing now that has made me become cranky at times, other times lame, and sometime mean. had bio-informatics lesson in the morning, almost slept during the lesson. was trying so hard to keep myself awake. after that, went to the canteen to get a can of coffee to keep myself awake for the genetics lecture. well, at least it did help since i didn't really felt those heavy eyelids crashing down.
went for early lunch, then proceeded to the tutorial room to finish some things up. had tutorial, then went to get some snacks. well not really, had a sandwich, rockmelon and green tea. then went for protein technology practical. as usual i am not really participating in the practical. not sure when this attitude of mine will really continue, but hopefully this slacking mood will be gone soon. left early since there was music practice.
had the practice at the auditorium instead of the TFA. the practice was for the soloists and guys only. so there wasn't really alot of people there. ms ang had the 'final' version of the song for the graduation ceremony. when i first heard it, i thought it was the sound system that was lousy because i couldn't believe my voice was that lousy in that version. well my true fears came true, because it was really my voice over that system. i felt so damn embarassed. ms ang was saying that both dr lau and dr joel lee were commenting that i was off key. even clement chow said that my tone was
terok. felt so demoralised. siping was like, "hey, you ok anot?" really, felt damn sad because i was really expecting something better. damn. think this 'hurtful' feeling gonna stay here with me for some time. so in the mean time, try and help me happy ok?
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/30/2004 11:29:00 pm
Monday, July 26, 2004
Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day, because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars.
don't you find this phrase so meaningful? so simple yet so profound.
well, been busy with school recently. been alot of assignments and projects to do. and that's besides the other commitments i have to my CCA and church. that's why couldn't find the time to update my blog.
wondering what i have been up to lately? well, joined the choir of SCLS for the graduation ceremony. singing diana digarmo's I believe. the song has some pretty nice lyrics, but it was kinda hard to get the scores out because her rendition of the song had some 'tempo' problems, and she has the habit of changing notes throughout the song. there was even a part when she suddenly jumped an octave higher. well, in the end, managed to get the score sheet out. still practicing with it. we have a soloist now. her voice on the high notes seem very smooth. find it very enchanting.
well, today during medical microbiology practical, ms farah told me that some of her colleagues said that i have a good voice. felt very embarassed. then i kept insisting that i don't really have one. she started ask me: "why so humble?" got shocked when she said that. then i just laughed it off and said there are people better then me, then continue with my practical. why humble? i think i shouldn't be at all proud of my good voice, coz it is God who has given me this good voice. even if i should be proud, i should be proud of my God, and not the talent that He has given me.
anyway, tomorrow gonna have 2 practice sessions, and i have to skip lessons for both sessions. well, clement chow is gonna come tomorrow to have an hr training session with us. hopefully its productive.
gotta go now. will update again soon.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/26/2004 09:02:00 pm
Thursday, July 15, 2004
been rather busy of late. busy with the club crawl. been busy with BB primers. been busy with school. busy with almost everything. will blog again when i have more time.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/15/2004 08:04:00 pm
Sunday, July 11, 2004
hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/11/2004 10:07:00 pm
Guess what i heard in church today? A firestation caught fire and they took a damn long time to put it out. How ironic.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/11/2004 02:52:00 pm
Saturday, July 10, 2004
A girl and guy were speeding over
100 mph
on the road...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on
yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because
of break failure. 2 people were on it, but only
1
survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the
guy
realized that his brakes are damaged, but he
didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had
her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time,
then had her wear his helmet so that she would
live even though it meant that he would die.
haix...wish i could do it for someone...talk about sacrificial love.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/10/2004 09:19:00 pm
Sunday, July 04, 2004
tonight's the finals of euro 2004. a must watch match! greece and portugal. and i am so praying against a greek win.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/04/2004 08:31:00 pm
Saturday, July 03, 2004
boring life. i guess i am going to take up tuition. waste some time and earn some cash. need the cash to get some things.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/03/2004 01:36:00 am
Friday, July 02, 2004
yesterday i was online to check my timetable. got a shock when i saw it. i really don't know how to survive the second yr if i continue to slack like what i am doing now. *rolls eye* the modules seems tough too. protein tech, medical tech, bioinfo, bioprocess tech, intro to immunology and molecular genetics. the module names enough to scare me. sch starts on monday and its friday already. great. another like 3 days to rot! haha. but i think when i'm back in sch on monday, wouldn't really have anything to do since we don't really have the notes and stuff. i think i'm gonna hate mondays from now on, well maybe at least for this semester. class starts at 8, ends at 9, then we have a 3 hr break to like 12? then back to class to 4. kinda sucky. i think when i'm in sch on monday i will make use of the 3hr break to go to the library or something to get some books to read on. i think yr 2 is gonna be super super super tough. no time to slack already. i don't think i want to look back and say, hey, i should been prepared and done better.
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/02/2004 03:47:00 pm
i think i am going to make a point to write in proper english. my english is deteriorating, i even stutter when i speak. so no more, at least much lesser singlish from now on.
anyway, yesterday was kinda troubled, didn't know what it was at first, then managed to found out. my future. i guess i was worried about my future. like what am i going to be in the future? who will be my lifetime partner? will i succeed in life? all these things came into my mind, just couldn't take it all. God earlier gave me a word: "Be still and know that I am God". i was like, ok, thanks God, and just brushed it aside. today then i truly realised that, hey! trust in the Lord. if He can feed the lilies of the field and clothe the birds of the air, the One who made the heavens and the earth, who put the stars in their place. what can be so difficult for Him who is the creator of all things? well, maybe i should put my faith in trusting God with my future, because at least i know He holds the future and He gives the best to his children.
well, anyway, today had NYP primers AGM meeting at hq. meet up with kj and eby in orchard first, had dinner then just sat down at yoshinoya to talk. nothing much. kj was bugging me to go to the zoo with her on her b'dae with some other ppl. kinda lame right? haha. anyway, after dinner, went down to hq. AGM was short and sweet. precise, nothing too draggy. met the chaplain for the first time. seems to me like a very humble man, with a passion to touch and re-direct souls to the kingdom of God. at least better i think he's more youth orientated. well, match has started already. gtg now. ciaoz!
Your Love falls like the morning dew
|| 7/02/2004 02:32:00 am